Nightmares

           Dammit.  Four nights in a row.  Nightmares.  Can't remember the lines from "Fight Club" about having insomnia, but they were brilliant!
           But, I do have this one:
      
             "I was living in a state of perpetual deja vu. Everywhere I went, I felt I'd already been there.  It was like following the invisible man..."

            On Nov 8, 2010, at 7:34 PM, <conca5@cox.net> <conca5@cox.net> wrote:

> Today, Kim had a trying day. She had hopes she would be released
> from St. Joseph's today, but is really having a difficult time
> breathing, due to blood loss from surgery, chemo and the drain to
> relieve the abscess where her gull bladder was removed. She will
> remain on oxygen through the night. She was given two pints of
> blood to try to relieve the anemia. A pulmonary Dr. was called in,
> Dr. Riley, who feels the tumor/clots in her lungs also make it
> difficult for Kim to breath and her heart rate has been increased as
> her heart tries to replace her blood and work to keep her lungs
> going. So, she is understandably tired today. Dr. Atkinson stopped
> in and told her he did not want to remove her drain today - it is
> better the blood come out, rather than pool up inside of her. He
> ordered the blood to be tested so he can decide if he needs to be
> concerned with internal bleeding. Dr. Leon, the vascular surgeon,
> checked on Kim's arm today, following the successful thrombectomy he
> performed yesterday and said she was doing nicely. She says her arm
> is still tender, but not painful like it was yesterday.
> Kim is now totally converted to the blood thinner Loverox. I
> gave her an injection in her stomach this morning and will give her
> another shot tonight. She said it didn't hurt, but as it was the
> first injection I ever gave, I know she was just being sweet.
> Tonight, I brought my laptop with me to St. Joe's, so Kim is
> helping me remember her day. She wants you to know she is trying
> her hardest to get healthy, but it seems that her body does not want
> to cooperate. She will be given lasix tonight to get rid of any
> fluid around her lung and heart and Dr. Riley ordered new x-rays
> over Kim's chest in the morning. Kim is overwhelmed by the support
> and prayers pouring in from the community - she says it really keeps
> her going.
> Special thanks today to the hard working team over at Barnes &
> Noble!! I spoke with my District Manager, Tom, today, who has done
> so much to make sure that I can spend this time with Kim and my
> family. He is so impressed with how well the team is keeping the
> store looking great and preparing our store for the holiday
> season!!! I cannot say enough good things about everyone over there
> - it is so great to work with all of them as partners in that
> operation and to know that the store is in great hands is such peace
> of mind.
> Today, Autumn stayed home sick and slept on our neighbor's,
> Brian and Betsey's couch. Antonio's teacher, Mrs. Schrantz,
> reported that Tonio had a 'sad' day and he told me that she did so
> much to make him smile. Cody keeps going strong, as the wear and
> tear of the last three weeks catches up with the little ones. Our
> neighbor, Amy, just brought the bambini's down to visit with Kim -
> they love to see her and have made her some adorable cards and
> pictures.
> So, we are spending some quite time now that the kids have gone
> home with Amy, who does such a great job getting them dinner,
> showered, lunches packed and to bed for us...and we're watching a
> little Monday Night Football - Emilio, I know you must be glued to
> your set, looking for a Bengals comeback and Brad and Janene are
> happy that the Steelers are winning! We're right there with you and
> we know that you are all right there for us! Thanks again for
> everything,
> God Bless,
> Dave

            Our Tuesday night 'therapy' session with Lupe and Manny Barrios was a hit, as usual!!  We look forward to the wonderful meal and conversation...

       


               

            "I know why I'm in this hell...I just don't want to believe..."